Feeling Bummed Out:
It has come to my attention that frequently (and lately it's been more frequent) I fall into these bouts of mild depression. Now, I know that depression is normal and everyone has their highs and lows. The thing that mildly concerns me is that I have been having more lows than highs.
I am currently coming out of this low that I've been in for the past week (which coincidentally coincided with my "time of the month") and am climbing towards my inevitably short lived high. In my low periods generally consist of reliving old unhealthy habits, lack of or too much sleep, fear of going anywhere (even walking the dog), crying excessively for seemingly no reason (the true reasons being irrational, exaggerated, abstract thoughts about myself or human kind in general), neglecting my chores and even my recreations, and frequent lashing out at my husband. I guess this is all normal considering that my life has in fact changed dramatically over the past year or so (especially in the past two and a half months). It is still distressing sometimes. I don't want to wake up 5 years from now and say "wow, I wasted my life being afraid to live." This isn't a woe-is-me post at all, don't misunderstand. It's more for me to just get it out than anything else. It seems when ever I want to talk about how I feel to anyone, they don't understand, or I have trouble forming the words that match what's in my head. So I remain alone with my thoughts.
Ok. I'm finished talking about this. It's ugly and it feeds my mood.
In keeping with my commitment to continue updating about this, I have a few more completed pieces.
Cool Video Time:
So, this video was posted on my facebook wall by this really awesome lady, Beth.
It pretty much speaks for itself.
Not many people might like it, but it kind of puts things into perspective, and surprisingly cheered me up a little bit (it also saddened me a bit as well, but it's a good kind of sad I think).